Health Updates

So, it appears that each treatment will bring different side effects! A surprise each week! Last week mouth sores, this week more nail issues. Lots more fatigue this week. I don't know if that's from treatment or because the steroids are coming down. It's nice to sleep, but it was also really nice to get lots done!! It seemed like I needed all that time to get stuff done! Of course, that's a little counter to what I've been saying right - prioritize and slow down??? It's always hard to take my own advise!! As my office-mate can attest to, I'm good at sounding like I know what I'm doing, but not really at actually doing it!!! I also picked up my Tykerb today, to start tomorrow morning. This is another targeted therapy against the HER2+ receptor. It's a small enough molecule that it crosses the blood-brain barrier. So that should help prevent brain recurrences while the herceptin should prevent systemic recurrences. It's an oral agent, so I take it in pill form. I think that makes it harder to do than the IV stuff. At least with IV, somebody else is doing it to you. Now, I'm doing it to myself!! I remember being pregnant and just taking Flintstones chewables was difficult to remember!!! Life is sure a lot different. It makes me think about the radiation to come. I don't like to think of myself as a "sick" person. In fact, I don't think of myself as that. In fact I think I'm refusing to say I'm sick! But, will I be able to keep it up during radiation and chemo? I think I might get a little bit of a reality check and I don't want one!! I like living in my little world where everything I want I get!! Don't we all love that world??? In that world, I don't ask to not have cancer, I just am able to complete every goal I ever wanted to complete! Good mother, wife, employee, sister, human! I so hate letting people down!!! That's probably what I
The most apprehensive about radiation: I don't know how much I will let people down! It's always the fear of the unknown. I'm gonna remember the saying I used a lot before: it doesn't do any good to worry about the future. If what you worry about happens, you've worried twice! If it doesn't, you wasted your time worrying for nothing!!

Okay, so let's move forward!! My brother just got into town and I'm gonna enjoy my 3 days reconnecting with my "little" brother!!!