"Amazing Recovery"

So, I haven't posted in a couple days and I don't want to let down my loyal followers!  HAHAHA!  I think it's so cool that anyone follows me.  I think that doing this blog has helped me more than any paper journaling has ever done because it gives me a purpose.  Knowing that people might read what I say makes sure I think about what I want to say!  So, thank you all for making me think!

So I was in Walmart picking up some groceries with my sister and a man whose wife gave me a prayer saw us.  He pulled my sister aside and said: What's she doing here? Didn't she just have surgery???

It made me think...yeah I just had surgery, but I'm not doing anything extraordinary.  I'm just living life.  I'm not pushing myself or working hard, just moving forward.  It's not me that's doing anything amazing.  It's the grace of the Lord.  Anything I'm doing, I'm doing because he has allowed me.  I have nothing to compare my recovery to - am I on track, doing better, doing worse?  I'm not sure it really matters.  I think I'm doing what I need to be doing: getting healthy.  I'm really proud of myself and I hope I am making the steps for long-lasting healthy life.  I'm watching what I'm eating (in moderation, not extreme), I'm walking and stretching (in moderation, not extreme), I'm thinking about me and life and priorities (in moderation, not extreme).  I think in the past I have made the goals too high, too difficult to maintain.  I want to avoid that this time.  I want what I do to be do-able.  Which is why I'm happy I have this blog: its been do-able and keeps me accountable to my own goals!

Sometimes I worry that I'm changing too much, like maybe becoming too fervent or pollyana or religious.  Maybe, but if gives me peace, I think I'll do it.  I hope you can all tolerate me in the future!!!!

Actually, as I think about it, I'm really enjoying this recovery because right now that's all I need to focus on.  In the coming weeks I have a lot of doctor appointments to get information to make the future decisions for treatment.  This is the easy step...those are more difficult decisions to live with.